I should have listened to my gut in February.
“We take the amateur route instead. Instead of composing our symphony, we create a “shadow symphony,” of which we ourselves are the Orchestra, the conductor, the composer, and the audience. Our life becomes a shadow drama, a shadow start-up company, a shadow philanthropic venture,” – Turning Pro, Steven Pressfield
I have experience in overwhelm.
However, last September still felt different. I was practicing writing. I was building a resume and contacts that would eventually free me of “the man.” Mostly, though, I was enjoying bringing the CrossFit Community stories to life. I felt the stories I found were making an impact.
Things changed. In January, the CrossFit Community Site shut down. When I asked why, I was told it was Glassman’s decision. I took a job as Europe’s CrossFit Media Director for the Games Site. The Media Director job wasn’t about writing at all, but I thought it would be [even though I was told it wasn't, multiple times, by multiple people]. I created schedules, found writers, chased writers for: edits, pictures, follow-up questions, and I edited their work. But after writing about people who overcame obesity, accidents, and deaths, editing writing about CrossFit athletes felt less meaningful to me.
I also started a new day job in February, with a high-needs manager. Spending a day working for someone anal and then coming home to meet someone else’s requests? Not ideal. Additionally, I was managing the blogs of two other businesses.